huimin aka pipi♥
dover ITE
ALWAYS 19 ^^\/
a simple girl living in a
complicated world
wah....i so long never blog..gonna clean my blog screen...
*wipe wipe*
*wipe wipe*
CAN YOU SEE ME NOW???
haha...hmmm...been busy de...it's like so fast lor...
mid of march jus end my ite life...den mid of april im start my poly life le...
things running too fast for me to take a deep breath...sigh
life really getting tiring each day...
im not good in networking...why do i still choose to get into networking??
sigh...if not...where should i go???
i keep have the feeling of quitting school everyday...but...many things hold me back from it...sigh...i really dono what to do...D=
i did told my mom that i wanna quit...and she say "girls study less it's okay...guys should study more"...
by hearing this i know mommy support me de...but...if i never study le...what am i gonna do?? i cannot just stay home wait for money...i gonna work...if i work now...means salary will be less...how to save for my coffin money???
so i force myself to continue study...but...everytime in networking lesson...gosh...i really dont understand a thing...i know...you can say i never put in effort...i did tried...sigh...you wont know de la...
then at home...i so wanted my mommy to give me some supporting words to fire me up...let me have the urge to study networking...but all mommy say was MONEY!!!...gosh...she say "if you buy laptop, then you cant quit school liao." "if you buy liao still want quit, then you have to return money to me"
sigh...like this hor...really make me lost...so i just say wanna quit...but in the end..u know la...i still continue study...haha...mao dun pipi ar....sigh...
i wanna quit...but...where to find money return mommy...work money??? if work of cos need save for coffin money de...i know i stingy...but...im serious...
then i start to cant cope my networking...maths still okay...FE also dono...CRS i hate it...IDEAS cant understand what that ang moh talking about...
gosh...people keep ask me to decide it myself...cause is my future...
i know...
but very hard...really...every minutes ive been thinking...think till headace still think...everyday eat panadol like meal...every night inside dreams also got people haunt what's my decision...really scary...keep kena wake...wake sleep wake sleep...
temper starts to get bad...little things will start a tiff with baby...then suddenly inside toilet bath will cry...before sleep also cry...cry till headace...sigh...cant tell mommy...sigh...
everyday go school act normal...at home act normal...sigh...
keep think keep think...think till sick...
flu...runny nose...everyone scare of me...
fever...39degree...nobody knows...until baby acc me go see doc...
2days mc...
rest...still thinking...din sleep well...sigh
3rd day...wanna go school...early in the morning...
woke up...go toilet as usual...when gonna wash face...giddy...faint...vomit...
face turn pale...yuck...i hate vomit...
mommy say maybe cause i need ate alot med...so all clash...then side effect...dotx
then friday...go school...IM NOT A VIRUS PLEASE
sigh...never sick before meh...
sigh...
i really need some kindsoul give me guidance...
love evil ;;
7:05 PM <3
