huimin aka pipi♥
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ALWAYS 19 ^^\/
a simple girl living in a
complicated world
omg!!!!...went to see alice nine blog as usual...den shou wrote something saying tat...12/01 performance at Aomori QUARTER and the 2 days in Sapporo PENNYLANE have been postponed...due to Tora...sob...he's suffering from spinal disk hernia...oh my...shou also stated tat Tora has lost all sensations from his neck down to his left hand, and his left hand only has been getting cold to the touch...It's also been difficult for him to sleep as he's been standing up all night, so he hadn't slept since the performance in Sendai two days ago...and there are risks of paralysis...OMG!!!
poor Tora...hope he get well soon...i'll pray for u...
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it's 2008 le...seems like it's a bad starting of the yr...ppl falling sick...ppl die...ppl angry...ppl worrying...ppl sad...ppl faking...ppl crying
i wanna tell my dover friends...u ppl really bring me the brightness out of the dark...i will treasure those days we shared...studying, chatting, playing, watch movie,took shashin,playing magic cube,listening to music...etc...all will be keep deep in my heart...I LOVE U ALL AS A FRIEND...
i wanna tell u...even though it's past nt present...u r still in a corner of my heart...hope u r happy in jp...
i wanna tell my mum...i'm so sorry...ytd i saw flash back...nt very clear...but i still rmb...u keep blaming urself nt being a gd mum...u keep saying tat it's ur fault for nt taking gd care of sis...u keep saying tat it's ur fault tat bro hv tat accident...u keep saying tat it's ur fault tat u make me go for tuition...u think is ur fault to let sis studied in tat kindergarden...as ther only hv one teacher n tat teacher only speak chinese during lesson...tat's y sis don hv the foundation of english...u think is ur fault to let bro go to tat place for tuition...if he din go for tuition...he wouldn't hv long short leg...his shoulder wont aches...u think is ur fault thinking tat if i go for tuition...i will be more clever...but it resulted tat i became to hv pobia of tuition...actually all tis is jus fate...sis is a slow learner jus like me(tis is wat i think..mayb i'm wrong)...the kindergarden shld hv more teachers...n at least uncle sky din took back bro from us...it's tat lorry fault...n u jus wan me to be clever...jus like other mother wish...so i din blame u...it's nt ur fault...sometime hearing u crying at the kitchen...really make my heart aches...i'm sorry tat i throw tantrum...i noe i make u sad...i noe u worried abt us...i noe u nw suffering from some pobia...i will be good...i don wanna u to leave us...i wan u to be with us...
i wanna tell myself...i noe u r tired of tis life...but pls continue living...i still hv many things nt done yet...i noe u hate lying...but sometime i lie...i noe u hate being lazy...but i m lazy...pls don end my life...i wanna proof...jus proofing to u tat i m nt wat u think...
i m stress wit nth...jus feeling stress...
my mind is full of childhood flash back...
but nt all...
it's only show the sad part...
y m i so emo tis few days...
y m i acting tis way...
is my life ending soon...
pls don...
pls...
i wan to stay on...
love evil ;;
4:12 AM <3
