Monday, January 07, 2008

omg...so sudden hor...mc king died...

i was jus broswing through his blog tat day...den saw the news...

RIP...

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read many news abt ppl died when slping...

omg...i donno wanna die yet...i still hv many things nt done yet...

i hv many words to say to many ppl

i wanna tell my family i love them alot...

i wanna tell my mum i really thank her for giving birth to me...i really owe her a lot...tis life i may nt be able to repay all to her...sorry

i wanna tell my father i'm sorry tat i cant get the mark u wan in exam...i'm sorry tat we din really tok much to u...but in my heart u r a great father...but i also hope tat u can pay more attention to us...n stop drinking n smoking...i don wanna si qu anyone of u...

i wanna tell my bro tat he is a great bro...although we may nt tok much nw...i'm sorry tat i always very xiao qi...

i wanna say sorry to my sis...i donno whether she still rmb tat time...but i still rmb...whenever i think of tat incident i feel so guilty...i cried over tis many times...i really wanna say sorry...
tat time we was still young...we went out wit mum to buy CNY stuffs...den both of us was snatching to push the trolley( those mum push to market de)...den mum told both of us to wait for her at a supermarket ther as she wanna go to the wet market...so me n sis was like snatching...den i very angry(stupid me)...i jus told my sis tat i donno wanna push liao..she can hv it...den i jus walk away to find mum...leaving her behind...tat time i very sad n angry...my eyes was like a filled well...i dare nt cry...as ther's a lot of ppl...i followed mum...but i noe my heart was thinking abt sis...but i'm angry...den mum bought finish the stuffs...so we went back to find sis...mum shouted for sis...but no one was at ther...no one reply...at tat time...i was scared...i am so angry of myself...mum angry also...she scolded me...n ask me to go find sis while she buy the last thing...so i ran all ard to search for sis...i ran, shouted for sis, cried...but no one...everyone was looking at me...they mayb think tat i'm lost...den...i dare nt went back to find mum...i walk from the back...continue to search...finally...i saw sis...i shouted to her...i quickly wipe away the tears...n ran to her...hugging her...den she...haha...tat's secret...i can only say tat's her last time bad habit...haha...actually she was sitting at a corner nearby the supermarket...den ask her y she nv reply mum...she say cos gt a indian man sitting/slping ther(i cant rmb)..so she scare...at tat time...i really so sad...i donno y...but sad...jus sad...I'M SORRY...I'M SINCERLY SORRY...

i noe she hate me n may nt wanna forgive me...but...i wanna say...thank you for being my sis n sorry tat i hv nt done wat an elder sis shld do...

i noe i very xiao qi...i jus wan ppl attention...mayb...

i wanna tell my friends tat i'm sorry tat u all noe me...i tried to tresure u all...but sometimes i felt tat i being fool by some of u...u told me tat she is so bad asking me nt to get near her...n in the end u was so gd wit her...u say we r best friend...u ask me to go ur house n stay for a night to celebrate x'mas(few yrs back)...it's u invited me...but in the end i noe the truth...u did nt tell ur parents i'm coming to stay over...so they tot it was i who wanted to stay over...making ur mum giving me face...when going out wit u n her...u always ask ppl me or u r the elder...wat's tat to compare abt?...we r both same age...jus few months diff...n when ppl say u look elder...u will like sighing...when ppl say i'm the elder becos i don tok much...u will b happy...i admit...i older than u jus a few months...so wat's to compare abt?...trying to make urself feel happy???...making ppl like a fool???...u asked me out...n in the end u din come...we 3 went out...den u see us home...after tat i went out wit my family...u msg me...i told u...den u say i lie...u say i was wit her...WTH...jus becos she say she was outside also...damn it...u still say u treat me as ur BEST FRIEND...friend shld believe wat friend say...u ask me to go her house as she is still preparing...i don wish to go her house...as i noe her mum don like me...u force me to go...alrite...i go...her mum act tat i was nt ard...i noe i m nt a sweet talker...tat's y her mum don like me...tat's y i don wanna go her house...but u kp wanting me to go...jus becos u think she live near me...WTH...u told me tat u moving house...i helped u...u told me how tired n stress u r...i rmb everything u say...but everytime u ask me wat time i working or studying...i told u the time...the nxt day u forgot...everthing i told u...u din take the initiative to rmb it...n yet u say i m ur close friend n we shld share the happiness n sorrow...

i wanna tell my pri frien tat i really great to hv u as my best frien...

i hv a lot to say to everyone...too many till i donno wher to start from...

no one knows when u r leaving tis world...mayb tml, 1hr later, 1mins later...

i really wanna tell everyone many things...

THANK YOU

AND

SORRY

i will treasure nw...

i don believe in forever...

i will leave...

love evil ;;
12:56 AM <3